Imposter Syndrome

Sunday, 9 August 2020

I was listening to an episode of the Futuresteading podcast last week (I think it was the one with Sophie Hansen of Local is Lovely) and the subject of imposter syndrome was raised. Now here were three amazing women, all doing fantastic things in their own fields, discussing how they still feel like imposters, of not being good enough to offer advice or assistance in the fields they clearly know some stuff about. And I realised this is totally me every time I post on Instagram or Facebook or here. 

Who am I to be showing how I do things or what I’ve made? I have no qualifications or authority in anything. In fact I’m almost embarrassed when I share things. I post a lot more on Instagram, where most of my followers don’t know me from a bar of soap, and only occasionally tag the posts to share on Facebook because I worry all my friends may roll their eyes and think ‘Oh, here she goes again’ or ‘What crap is she doing now?’.

Is it simply because I feel I have no authority to be showing these things or is it because most of society doesn’t value these old skills? Knitting feels like an integral part of my life and the online community in this area may be lulling me into thinking that this is normal but when I look around at the people I actually know, almost no one knits or makes soap or grows vegetables and I feel very alone. 

And deep down I know feeling like this is silly. This sharing of skills was how things were always taught. Our great grandmothers and grandfathers didn’t go to special classes to get a piece of paper to say they were able to make bread or repair furniture or grow their own food, they learnt by the sharing of these skills by the people in their lives, their own mothers, fathers, grandparents, aunts and uncles. And what’s more, these skills were essential to everyday life even if they no longer are.

In the last few weeks I have run into several friends who, because our children are no longer the littlies they were, I don’t see as often as I used to. And these friends have all commented, without prompting, how much they love to see what I’m making and what I’m up to and each of these comments has made me stand a little taller. 

What I do may no longer be commonplace but that doesn’t mean these skills are worthless. In fact they do have worth, not just to me but maybe to others too. So I’m determined to conquer this feeling of being an imposter and share more of what I do.

Because chances are, I might actually know what I’m talking about. Or then again, I may have no idea what I'm doing but I'm hoping someone out there has conquered their own imposter syndrome and is sharing their knowledge with us too.

xx

R

Hello lovelies!

Can you believe it has been more than a year since I last posted? Life got a bit crazy and the motivation to write just wasn’t there but I’ve been thinking about this little corner of the world for a while so I thought it was time to check in again. I’m always posting stuff on Instagram so if you don’t already follow me over there have a look.

Tha last time I wrote I had just changed from full time to part time at my then newish job but after giving it almost 18 months I decided working in a financial institution just didn’t make my soul happy. I have since returned to my previous employer and I am so incredibly happy with that decision. The biggest catalyst for that decision was no doubt another adventure I embarked on last year and that was doing a Permaculture Design Certificate. It changed me, and my outlook on so many things, in such a profound way it is still making waves in my life more than 6 months after completing it. If you ever have the opportunity to visit the very beautiful Limestone Permaculture Farm please do so! And if you can’t, make sure you check them out on the many places you can find them around the web. What an incredible place!

Obviously I have been spending time in the garden since completing my PDC and this spring promises to be a big one. My work usually slows down from late winter and into spring so that will give me so much time to put some plans into place. Can’t wait!

In the past fortnight, at almost 49 years of age, I have started my first university course by way of the Diploma of Sustainable Living through the University of Tasmania. I hope the old saying of ‘can’t teach an old dog new tricks’ isn’t true! So many of the topics are things that I love so I’m very excited to be studying this course.

I hope you are all well and enjoying everything life is bringing you at the moment. I promise it won’t be long until you hear from me again.

xx
R


Hello again!

Thursday, 16 May 2019

Hello lovelies!

It's been such a long time since I last blogged, the past seven months have been a bit of a whirlwind but I am, at last, back.

The new job is working out fine however it didn't take long before I realised working full time whilst managing this place was not ever going to be easy. I persevered, thinking I would just work full time for a couple of years and then take a step back but several months in I knew two years was never going to happen. I requested going to part time hours, something I was very nervous about as I was still in my probation period, but thankfully they were open to the idea and gave me the option of cutting two days out of my working week and I started on the reduced hours last month.

Oh. My. Goodness.

This was a game changer. I now feel like I can get back on top of what's happening around our little acreage and on top of the issues I have with my ear, something that was impossible working 5 - 5 1/2 days a week. I'm not there yet, my ear is currently annoying the crap out of me and I'm still working to get on top of the garden after an extreme summer (will there ever be one that isn't anymore? I highly doubt it) and not spending a single minute in it over the entire growing season.

In February I squeezed in a weekend Introduction to Permaculture course my lovely little family enrolled me in for my christmas gift and this has changed my entire vision for our little plot. I've mulled it over constantly since then and recently decided to do the full Permaculture Design Certificate (PDC) so have enrolled to do this in spring. Both courses were and will be at the wonderful Limestone Permaculture in the tiny hamlet of Stroud Road, about 1 hour 15 from home. If you haven't heard of it and have any interest in gardening or food production it's worth a look. There's tons of information about it online so a quick google search will have you enthralled.

The long work hours also meant very little knitting was done over the past 6 months, some, but not much, so I've also been able to pick my needles back up which makes my heart so incredibly happy. I even finished one project this morning and will share it as soon as it comes off the blocking mats.

All in all it's been a crazy seven months for me but life is starting to get a little closer to where I want it to be heading. Stay tuned to see more of our adventures, I promise it won't be another 6 months before you hear from me again.

xx

Merry Christmas!

Friday, 28 December 2018



Merry Christmas! I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas with your loved ones.

Ch-ch-changes

Wednesday, 10 October 2018

If you didn't read that in Bowie's voice I'm not sure we can be friends. Hee hee.

Big changes are afoot at Homespun Headquarters. I have a new job! I'm sure some will think that's not that much of a big deal but in an age where people change jobs like changing their shoes I can still count on one hand the number of jobs I've had in the 30 years of my working life.

But the biggest change will be the change in hours as it is full time! Argh! I haven't worked full time since Miss 15 was in infants school. I think it's going to kill me. Or at least kill my feet.

So this also means I won't have as much spare time for doing things here on the little acreage. My gardening time will take a hit but at least with daylight savings starting this past weekend I will still be able to squeeze a little time in before it gets dark. My knitting time will also take a hit so I have promised myself that as this time will be so precious I will treat myself to only the yarns I really, really want, the beautiful hand dyed stuff instead of the commercial stuff. I'm a little excited about this bit.

I have taken a few weeks off between finishing the old and starting the new (oh how I will miss those gorgeous girls at the old!) I had huge plans for painting during this two weeks but we have had more rain in this 2 weeks than we have had for months and because we need the rain so desperately I'm not complaining. The first day of my holiday started in horrific circumstances, but I'll tell you all about it when I can bear to think about it without breaking down. But rest easy, we are all well here.

Talk soon.
R xx

Aisling Shawl

Monday, 17 September 2018

I realised I have quite a few knitted and crocheted items I haven't written about so expect a few crafty posts over the next couple of weeks.

I knit this shawl a few months ago for a lovely neighbour's birthday.

I vastly underestimated the amount of time it would take me to finish this, each lace repeat on the border took over an hour and that wasn't including the ridiculous amount of tinkling back as I made so many mistakes. Tinking lace back is crazy difficult and takes forever.


But it was such a lovely outcome. I used some bamboo yarn I bought a couple of years ago so the drape on it is just lovely.


Ravelled here.

x

Giant Granny Square Blanket

Friday, 14 September 2018



Oh my goodness, I’m a little in love with this one! Who doesn’t love a granny square blanket, don’t we all have one in our childhood?

This one is from a tutorial by Sandra from the Cherry Heart blog and I only made one change in the colour scheme, swapping a very pale peach for a more vintage, muted peach.

It is now gracing the back of the lounge in my studio (more on that in the next post) and it still needs a bit of a block and the ends woven in but let’s ignore that for a little bit longer shall we?

Details ravelled here.